I apparently start realizing I don't write enough right around the holidays. My last post was 11/30/13. It's 11/19/14 and will likely be 11/30/14 when I actually post this. Being that I have 6 minutes and my phone is about to die, so I'm gonna have to stop long enough to fix that problem.
Lately, I've realized more and more that I could probably use a therapist, being that it takes like 27 sounding boards just to get thru life on a daily basis. So, I guess I'll stick with this idea for this entire post.
That said, I recently got married and discovered that life did not (and presumably will not) change solely because of this ring I have and the one my husband is wearing. However, certain "threats" to our marriage bother me. These same threats would not and/or did not bother me when we were "married".
This is a concept I shared with my husband tonight. Piss-poorly shared with him. But nonetheless, shared with him. It was shared in such fashion largely because I don't even know how to respond, so obviously have no idea how I would hope for him to respond. I'm not even sure why I care note now than I did.
The only thing I can think is that now we have people to hold us accountable if something goes wrong. Which is disgusting. The majority of our wedding party would have held us accountable anyhow.
But also, I think somehow, damage would hurt worse now than it would have. Something abt a legal contract. I'm not even sure why. It's all very strange and makes me feel quite silly and shallow. Or, maybe, I've just gotten old relatively suddenly.
These are all things I've talked to WAY too many people to. And no one has a real answer. Especially since I really don't feel differently abt him or us. It's almost like the outside has an actual, REAL impact.
I'm not even sure where I'm going with this. Not just in this post. In real life. It's all very normally weird feeling.
I guess that's it.
