Thoughts...

So, I was thinking today.  Which is typically not a great thing.  But I was kinda doing some self-reflection and it dawned on me that for the most part, people only know one side of me.  But there are really two sides.  Not that I'm two-faced... But I'm not just crazy and zany.  Though that's most of what I am.  It's the basis of how I relate to people.  

For a long time, my email address was spazzblondie2004...  But one day my current boss who was then also my boss just in a different capacity said something that sorta hit home a little (really, it was only a little), "Kekky, you're not a spazz and you're not a 'blondie' like your email address implies.  You tend to present yourself as thought you're just a spazz."  (He's way more intelligent that that, so that's definitely not a direct quote.)

Now, it's probably four years later and I thought about it today.  It's really quite true.  I shouldn't always present myself so much as a crazy person.  I'm proud of my craziness but at the same time, most people never know there's anything to take seriously.  


All this realization really did was create frustration in my mind and make me need to ponder more about how I should really be presenting myself to people. It'll probably take four or five years before I actually think about it, but that's ok.