Threat.

***Disclaimer:  please remember that sometimes my blog is used to vent.  Sometimes it's used to untangle my brain.  This post is untangling my brain as well as making an attempt to explain something that's really nothing.***

I'm a fairly strong, independent person.  My boyfriend described me as a "strong-willed, confident girl."  That said, I'm a formidable opponent - I've been told. 

I'm not likely to back down if I think something should be one way.  I'm not likely to let people walk all over me.  I'll do too much for people, but I have a reason for it.  I'm not being begged to help.  I'm not being used by people.

People have talked shit about me my entire life - and those people have always been female (or girly men... which there are way too many of).  And most of the women who have done it have eventually come out and admitted it was because they were jealous of the fact that a guy was flirting with me (which I seldom notice) or I have a nicer rack (not kidding - that has happened... more than once) or I this or that.  And it's always over petty, petty stuff. 

My FAVORITE one though, is when people finally admit (and I say people, because it has happened more than once), "I was being mean and talking crap because... Well, people like you.  And you seemed to know that, and I figured, like, people might like me more if they know that I know some crap about you.  Like we're close or something..."  And, ok.  Sure, you might get "put on the map" that way, but, freakin A!  You're on the map for being a bitch.  I have lots of friends and a (generally) drama-free lifestyle 'cause I live and let live.



I was recently talking to a friend who told me this, "I noticed that the men are really nice to me, and the women aren't."  And it's (generally) true for her and it's (generally) true for me.  I have a very limited number of female friends.  I don't get along with females.  They bother me.  Their incessant yammering, chattering, and gossip grates on my nerves more than nails on a chalk board.  Thus, my friends that are girls don't do that.  And they're awesome.  When they "gossip," they are really venting - and I think that's healthy.  There's none of this, "He said, she said, that you said that he said," crap happening.  That crap needs to stop.  I hate it.  So therefore, in general, I don't like women.


My "live and let live" and "women suck" attitude is apparent to almost everyone I know.  I say that confidently because people comment on it quite frequently.  I've had many girls tell me that they wish they could get along with guys like I do - play poker, football, watch dumb TV shows, talk about booze, etc.  Guess what?  It's easy.  Just shut up about the frikkin' drama.  Don't hang out with a bunch of dudes and tell 'em what you heard your friend say about your other friend.


Just today, I was told (by someone else), "Remember the Marc Antony complex - most people only get ahead by stepping on others....in this case both X and Y are doing that....you are a threat."  Sadly, it's true.  And it's not the first time it's happened. 

So, cocky as it sounds, I'm a freakin' threat, apparently.  And when people get threatened, they get mean.  And I get pissed.  And I don't handle that so well.


All I'm saying is that people (women, mostly) who get offended by my carefree, while also rather uptight (David has also called me Monica before...), but confident and free-willed personality shouldn't attempt to "take me down a notch."  I'm not cocky.  I'm just not afraid to be me.  That shouldn't make me a threat.  Or an opponent.  Or an anything else that is basically the opposite of team mate.  We're all the same freaking species of human.  I'm just a different one and not all hung up on stupid shit.  And I'll go WalMart and be dressed worthy of the "People of Walmart" site and not give a crap less.