Yeah... I'm Posting...

It's been forever, right?

I know I have some "loyal followers" out there, though.  Plus, I need to start writing again.  There's good reason to do it, so I may as well get back to it.  It is therapeutic.

I've wondered lately if I would have been better off during the passing of my grandfather (which happened ON my birthday two months and 12 days ago... and you'd be sad if you knew how quickly that exact number came to mind).  I probably could have handled the whole thing a lot better.

I'll admit, I did write a few things down right after he passed away, but they barely passed as good enough to post HERE.  And you know how crappy most of what I put on this blog are.

Anyhow, I need to start writing again.  And just posting this barely-a-morsel-of-a-piece-of-shit is going to have to suffice for now.  Writing is kind of one of those things I can easily lose any sort of motivation or passion for.  I did notice that the last time I wrote anything was only a few days before Christmas last year.

That said, a few things have happened:

• I went from sort of hating my job to TOTALLY hating my job, but in such a way that I love it and know that I will probably never quit.  And it's not easy to get fired from SWS, so the likelihood of that happening is slim and I really probably will become a "lifer."  Some of the people there have been there for over 30 years.  One dude is in his mid-70s, and quite, honestly, I have no idea how long he's been there other than "forever."
• Like I said, my grampa died.  Sucked giant donkey balls.  I'm still FAR from ok with it.  I don't go a week (even a few days) without crying about it.  I don't go a day without rationalizing myself out of going to his house to see my gramma.  It's still too weird.
• My relationship with my mother has improved.
• I'm tired all the time - I'm guessing it's a health issue.  Beyond a lack of taking vitamins.  And I don't care to get it figured out.
• I am in line for a promotion/raise.  The only thing slowing it down is that I am currently hourly and would need to be on salary to do what needs to be done and apparently that's unheard of.
• I have a legal situation that seemingly won't go away.
• I'm back to short hair.

I think that's really about it.  And, quite frankly, the only thing that is truly "worthy" of writing about is probably Grampa passing away and I know damn good and well that there's no good way for me to do that.  I keep thinking I could add it to some of the stuff I've previously written (specifically "Tonight" which I wrote a few years back, but I'm not sure I could actually do it).

Anyhow, welcome back, Me.  Let's see how long this keeps going.

And if you're "back" because I'm back, welcome back.  See ya.